Low Flame

person holding match stick with fire in front of candle with fire

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Being rejected, it is just a part of life. If you are rejected for a job, then just find another one. If you are being rejected by people romantically, just move on and find someone better; never sell yourself short. But what about when this happens continuously?

So I work as a glorified telemarketer…so you would think someone who gets rejected day in and day out would become used to rejection. And to some extent, you are right. If you hang up on me, that’s cool, I’ll just call the next person.

However, the rejection seems to cut a little deeper sometimes, especially during instances like a job interview. I’d end up doing my best, and still have to email the interviewer a week later to get rejected. Lately, I’ve been really down because of this; as well as being ghosted twice in a row…dating in the modern age! Am I right?! So you can understand why I would be in a blue mood.

Blue mood, blue mood…blue, blue…

Saying “I’m in a blue mood” sounds weird. doesn’t it?  Whenever I hear myself thinking I’m in a blue mood, my mind starts thinking of imagery that reflects the color and mood. I find myself thinking of a pitch-black room with a candle flame burning so low it’s about to go out at any second.

I am pretty sure this is some kind of metaphor my mind has come up with to show how low my self-esteem has gone down lately.  I’ve been picturing that dark room more and more lately. I get it! I’m in a dark place right now. I get it! But the candle flame; why is my mind focused on the flame?  Am I anticipating that it will go out? That’s kind of a crappy thing to think about…But the flame is low and blue, not much light is coming from it…

Growing up I hated reading and writing; mainly because I was a bad speller and a slow reader. I still kind of am. However, I have grown to enjoy writing…and reading, I really need to do that last one more often, but it’s hard to find a book that engages my mind. As you can see my mind is very dramatic and really knows how to paint a picture. I guess that’s why I love music so much. I can make my own music videos in my head to almost any song I listen to. I guess that why I have grown to love writing on here. No matter what is going on in my life, I always try and think of what an article about this topic or another would look like…

lighted candle

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…I see it now! The room is my bedroom! The candle is on my desk, by the window…

As I said, I’ve really come to enjoy writing. I wish I had more of a talent for it so it doesn’t take me so long to write something. If you have read my other articles, you can kind of understand why. I always try and argue with myself to make sure my thoughts make sense and that I make it as entertaining or interesting as I can. Plus I don’t like writing anything less than five hundred words,,,. By the way thanks for reading all of this! You Da Real MVP!

Now that I think about it, maybe this is what I should do as a job. NO, as a career! It’s a lot of hard work but hey I enjoy it!

…The curtains on the window just caught on fire, the wick is burning at a steady rate…

While I deal with managing this fire please help make our dream come true and hit that follow button. The more people that follow the better our chances of making our dreams come true. Even if you don’t want to follow us, we would appreciate if you shared this with other people.

Find your flame and never let it go out!

C.S.

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